i didn't realize that it has been since SEPTEMBER since i have posted stuff. gotta do better updating this digi-diary:
october...
discovered that birth control pills, stress and anxiety do not make a happy drenie. chemicals being shifted in my body so that i don't become pregnant until we're ready has not agreed with me at all. so i made my doctor switch me to another type of b.c. pill. the case of the unexplained crazies has subsided... for now.
decided that while going to a therapist is a good thing, find the RIGHT on may take longer than anticipated. although, the therapist answering a cell phone call during a session is probably NOT a good thing... right? yeah. i know. find a new one.
made the decision that planning for a wedding, while going to school, working full time and prepping a house to be put on the market during a horribly bad time for said housing market is not a good thing. simple is better. ditched the huge beach wedding crusade and now planning to elope instead. well, it's not really eloping if your parents are there, but nonetheless, simple elegant and very, very intimate is what we're going for. i suggested a justice of the peace, but sir contacted his former pastor and set up for us to be married at his old church instead. that decision alone scored major son-in-law points with my mother.
november...
on monday, november 10, sir and i exchanged vows in a small and private ceremony. it was virtually stress and drama free. romantic and very endearing. while i don't have any harsh feelings or ill will toward anyone who chooses to have the full blown shebang, it really wasn't my cup of tea. it was beautiful. later that evening, i gave the ONE gift i have been saving all my life for my true love--my virtue, my body, my virginity. that was a beautiful and spiritual experience as well. true ladies don't kiss and tell, so that's all i will share concerning that. so drenie is now mrs. sir!
all in all, through out the experience from the past few months, i learned that following one's heart is hard, but worth it in the end. i have not arrived in the least bit, but i'm definitely on a path to a happier, more satisfied and complete "me." i believe that is the way God intended for us all to live-- a life full of joy, peace contentment and of purpose.
be brave in following your dreams. be diligent and steadfast in your pursuit. be blessed.
