i will readily admit that i am (like most people) a little more into caring about things than i should be. let me clarify, i am way more into worrying about what might or might not happen than i should be. thus, causing me to spend energy dwelling on things or people i can't control. or keeping me from moving forward. as hard as i try to break away, i always revert back to "well, what if?..." and i'm back to what i try not to do.
there's a new (well, new to me) movement or awareness going around about "the secret" i'm sure you've seen the mighty oprah talk about it. basically, it's talking about the laws of attraction. we conscientiously and sub conscientiously attract all the positive and negative things in our life. the idea of this secret is to radically change your way of thinking to unlock the key to happiness, success, love, wealth, health and so on. and it so EASILY corresponds with the Bible's teachings (although the producers make sure this not a religion-specific production). think, visualize, believe, be thankful for what you have now, then release it to the universe. there's a scripture that says "as a man thinketh in his heart, so shall he be" (Proverbs 23:7). and then there's "death and life are in the power of the tongue" (Proverbs 18:21). so if i think and believe in my heart that certain things will come to me and i should speak those things i desire to have in my life, why it is so hard to obtain it? really believe that love, health, wealth should be mine. because i deserve it?
it's because of the that "b" word. BELIEVE. i believe certain things will come to pass. and i do believe that if you start out your day saying it's going to suck, chances are it will. because you're going through with that attitude and mindset to receive the crappy day you've built up in your mind. i've experienced that. which is why i'm getting in the daily habit of be thankful for the new day and believe each day will bring something good. despite that this morning started out really, bumpy i wrote down lyrics to this song and meditated on the word "peace" throughout the day. and then there's this business of casting cares and letting it go.
that is something a borderline control freak like me has a hard time doing. releasing it to the universe or God in this matter. i'm making a conscientious effort to literally let go and let God. there are a couple situations that i'm being tested on in this area. i want this to eventually be an effortless part of my thinking. that entails changing the way i think and act or or react in certain situations. i'm making an effort to cast my cares and it's going to take the help of God and his universe to make it so. that's all He wants so He can take care of the rest. right?
how can i release it? let it stay there once i let it go? how can really cast my cares and let nature and God do the work? i guess things come in time. at one point i didn't really believe that i was a beautiful person physically and characteristically. but now it's hard for me not to look in the mirror and smile saying "you're a very pretty girl and you deserve nothing but the best." i know that sounds vain to some of you, but it's really self-affirmation. it took a long while to get there, but i'm here. but i don't want for it to take as long as it did to realize my self-worth to believe that love, financial freedom and total happiness are coming to me also. so i'm working on believing that those things will come to pass. not because i deserve them (and i believe i do), but because God promised those things to me. and He never goes back on His word. i just have to find a way to let it go. guess that's what i'm doing here....
be willing to let go. be willing to truly BELIEVE. be blessed.
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