this week has been, like the others for the past few months, grueling, long and laborious. working late hours. staying up even later to catch up with my online studies. and i'm still slightly behind. although i'm getting better grades now (two Bs on my last assignments).
somewhere in between there i try to carve out much needed one on one time with sir. we've been working extremely hard at making our very long distance relationship work. sometimes missing each other's calls or delayed emails and letters. it's been very, very challenging, but totally worth the effort. but i digress...
like i said this week's been no different with the insane work load/schedule. but today ended the week in a sweet unexpected surprise. it started with a text message from sir:
"Hi, baby. U have my heart... I love U so much N I do want to take care of U. I adore U..."
since i was asleep when he sent it, imagine my total awe when i read that first thing. "how can i NOT love him?" i ask myself. of course i reply with similar sweet confessions via texting. the mood is set and i'm made totally aware how much i really enjoy this man. so the day goes on with the usual last minute project requests. working through lunch to get stuff done. staying late to desperately keep thing on time with production.
but today, i manage to have flirty text message conversations with sir and we even talk for a whole hour while i'm at work today. i pack up to head to the library from work, only to discover that they close at 5p on fridays! i didn't get to leave wk until 6p. a little dismayed, i'm then stuck in traffic for an extra 45 minutes. WHY???? the holidays bring a sometimes unbearable on road experience. but i'm still in a decent mood.
i get home, check the mail and there's a package from sir. it's for my birthday. "great!" i'm thinking because we've had numerous conversations about what he should get me (usually with my being agitated because i gave him a cheat sheet to guide him in the selection). so, i'm thinking he's FINALLY decided on SOMETHING. i'm more excited that he's sent me anything and not particularly picky. i think it's a cd since i've made vague references to music i'd like to own. i open and it's something so special, i'm totally taken aback by it.
it's a journal. but not just ANY journal. all the pages are filled with daily entries of what's in sir's heart and mind as it relates to ME. filled with snippets from past conversations, prayers for us, scriptures and lyrics that remind him of me. i'm totally blown away. because he's been working on this wonderful, wonderful gift for almost a month. since late october. i'm rendered speechless and literally brought to tears. the gift is the perfect melding of his lovely letters, my love for paper and journals, hand crafted gifts and lovely design. AND he scented the pages with cologne. giorgio armani, i think.
any doubt i may have had about his feelings for me are dispelled with this one, single chronicle of love for me. what did i do to deserve such sweetness? surely God thinks well of me to allow this man to shower such affection. i am so not worthy of this. and i'm humbled by this act of sweet kindness. this precious gift trumps anything i'll receive on my birthday. this gift is more precious than the flowers i was seeking before. God, is this for real? and because he's kept this hidden for so long, so well sir's name should be changed to the man.
i am speechless and totally blessed to have this special guy in my life.
be blessed.
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